xInsideTheHorizonx

Hold my hand and lead me through this, Hold my heart and save me from the pain, Hold my lungs and keep me from the toxicity, Grab my bags and take me to that old street, Grab all the candles and keep them lit all night, Grab all the cd's and put them on repeat, Grab some drinks and lets make a toast, Grab that lighter and burn that past away.

I stand by your open coffin, Peering in and seeing your facade, Nightmares are only reserved for you, As you lay there ignoring your pain, Your eyes flicker and your mouth moves, You still continue to play dead, You still continue to be in misery, How long will it take for that coffin to close?

Should I go back?, Should I stay ahead? All I hear are your lies, All I see are false promises, Should I go back to you, Should I go back to misery? Our time lasted long enough.

 I don't know I just wish I could you know pull the cord so I can finally release myself from my internal prison I'm getting high as we speak so I can finally understand how it felt when you crushed my hopes and dreams I beat myself up so I know how it feels to be beaten physically and mentally after all you do it all the time I beat on my drum set so I can silence out all the judgement because you want to be stronger than your abusive father I don't lose any battles in my mind because at least in there my mind is my only friend I always forget because blood is always in my face from the numerous beatings you give me I can't forget hi

Use me, come on and use me, I can't deal with the dreams anymore, Use me, come on and use me, I can't handle this relationship, Use me, come on and use me, Every night I stay up, Every night I stay up, I try to imagine this working out, I try to see if you can look past it, I can't deal with the dreams anymore, You just laughed at me when I cried, You just laughed at me when I cried, I'll try my best to do my best, But all I see is me hanging in a crowded room.

Some don't deserve forgiveness, Some don't deserve pity, Can I just put the gun to my head? Obviously nothing is that easy, Can I just erase all the bad things? Obviously nothing goes away, Was I created as a monster? Or did I become one?

Can you help me? I'm only drowning in the bottom of a well, I'm only a broken little boy inside, Can you yell at me? I'm only a irreversible person, I'm only guilty by association, Can you look at me? Because I sure can't.

One question I have, Where is Mom, Why did she leave?, I sleep outside my bed, Another question I have, Where is Dad, Why did he leave?, I drink alone, One more question I have, Where is my childhood? Why didn't I get one? Why can't I stop crying? I live alone.

I want to make you suffer, I want to make you shiver, I want to make you scared, After all I'm only a monster, The monster you created, I was always with you, From our first Christmas, To our last Halloween, All you got to do is wake up.

You hearing me? please wake up, I can’t lose another friend. you shouldn’t of drank that bottle of scotch. you should of put on that seatbelt. Come on wake the fuck up! I lost two friends already, I’m not losing you..I promised your mother you would come back. Why don’t you wake up? I’ll stand by your side. Dude, tonight is prom. We wouldn’t want you to stand up your date, now would we? she really likes you. Your truly a unforgettable dude. Can you just wake up! please…you will be my best man, you were my childhood best friend. So what are you wearing for prom? are you going in a pinstripe suit?